When all you can do is to...
When all you can do is to sleep it all away.
Kind of pathetic, I know. I was simply too restless to touch my Operating System notes and to begin cramming them all into my brain. No one else was at home. The time seemed to ticked by slowly. And the next thing I knew, I woke up from a two hour nap at six, and rushed out to get myself the newly introduced nasi ayam percik from McDonalds for dinner.
Bonding sessions with my sister-in-law have always resulted in awkward situations. How to ignore an uneasy silence, are we suppose to hold hands while crossing busy roads, is it alright for me to only nod politely and smile when she attempts to get me talking – and to grow quiet again instead of contributing to the conversation? It still needs quite a bit of time for me to warm up to having her around. I feel blessed to have her as my sister-in-law. I really do. While we were having lunch yesterday, she reminded me that it has been an exact five months since my brother and she got married.
I blinked. I have not been keeping track all this while. Five months already? A lot has happened in a period of two months alone, better known to my coursemates and I as Trimester Two of our studies – which has been extremely hectic. Thinking about it now, I seemed to have missed out in a lot of things, although there were quite a number of events such as weddings and funerals. Weekends were almost always spent on photo shooting and completing my font assignments. I threw tantrums, rushed around like a mad woman, avoided family gatherings, complained of not having enough time, cursed a certain lecturer famous for his assignment rejections.
Someday I will need to evaluate and review myself. Probably before a new year of studies in May 2003. I feel as if I have changed a lot. People have labeled me as fierce, cool, serious, stubborn and of all things, weird. Not exactly encouraging and positive adjectives to begin with – and all these were thrown to me in Trimester Two alone.
Still a few days to go before the term break begins. Perhaps I will be paying a few visits to the cinema then. Funny how I had thought time had went by both slowly and quickly in this post alone.
Would never have thought of giving a chance to Jimmy Eat World if it were not for the free CD. Welcome to my favourite band list.
On air now: Cautioners, Jimmy Eat World (Bleed American, 2001)